Tuesday, December 1, 2009

this song always makes me cry

Praise is rising, eyes are turning to You, we turn to You
Hope is stirring, hearts are yearning for You, we long for You
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Presence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS
Hosanna, hosanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Hosanna, hosanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

Hear the sound of hearts returning to You, we turn to You
In Your Kingdom broken lives are made new, You make us new
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Presence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS
Hosanna, hosanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Hosanna, hosanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Presence all our fears are washed away
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Presence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS
Hosanna, hosanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Hosanna, hosanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus
(Repeat)
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna, hosanna

Friday, October 16, 2009

crunch leafs

It is amazing to watch beauty.
It is even more amazing when the beauty you're watching pulls itself into you.

It feel so magical, so refreshing to get back to the things that matter to you. that make you feel human. normal. right. peaceful. and beautiful.
Its so easy to do this, but we forget.
All day everyday I am pumped with images of despair, loneliness, hate, lust, suffering and self absorbtion. It weighs me down. until my head is full of these things.
I can feel the light, the beauty underneath it all, but it seems to out of reach for me to actually step forward and stretch my hands out into the beam of light.

I want to create.

Today I found out why i am where i am. why i am who i am. and why i am what i am. [thats popeye]
Today i discovered the world.
Today i recieved a gift.
Today i learned to love my little girl.
And today i found out why i have her.

Tomorrow is another adventure. i want to clutch the sunbeams in my fingers and feel the joy rise in me. I want to laugh with reckless abandon and run and chase and build and tear down and rise up and love and learn and create.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

kate


my goodness Kate Winslet is beautiful. She is like George Clooney, she just keeps getting better with age. I wish all women were like this.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

sunday day

This morning I went for a little walk. I just took Baby and strolled into the park where Ben and I got married.
The leaves have fallen all over the ground now [when did autumn get here???] and the bare tree tops with the leaves that are still resisting their fate look so brilliant with the sun streaming through. I was entranced. so was the Pea.
I [we] sat on a bench and I remembered all those times as a child when I would go for a walk through a grove of trees and ponder life. even as a very small child I was fascinated by the idea of life existing outside my view.
I always had some imaginary friend with me. whether it was just my jimminy cricket, Jesus or some little toy I had with me that I had given a soul to... I was never really alone. And now I have a Pea with me everywhere.
So it seems some things never change, even when we think everything has. things just become more real as we experience them.

Now I would like my husband to come home so I can have some of this beautiful evening with him.

Monday, August 10, 2009

uncensored

So I am brewing up some ideas surrounding starting professionally blogging.
However I am having a few minor issues so far.. One being the blog 'title'. Now I know that it should reflect what the blog is mainly about etc. [see; miss604.com] but my mind is drawing blanks.

another issue is that I want to incorporate photos into the grand majority of my blog, and I just sold my SLR so that I could buy the one I prefer, but the money ended up going to other things..
another thing would be my Grammar. Never taught it properly in school (as my gr. 12 english teacher found out, none of us knew it properly), I admit i get nervous about certain rules of our language.

and lastly, the only 2 things on my mind are when my darling child has eaten, and sex.
thats right, i said the 's' word.
I tend to lean more to the male side of the sex thing, this being, the thought of it truly does come into mind approximately every 3-7 seconds.
-When I am not thinking about my childs appetite.

I want my 'pro blog' to incorporate sex. sexuality, sexual abuse, growth, health etc. but that's not all i want it to be about. not by a long stretch.. soooo i am stuck.
*side note; i do not want it to be about my daughters feeding schedule.

i don't want the title to be dirty, stuck up, mother-goosey or that Susan sex ladylike or 'emo'.
i want it to attract, girls, boys, married couples, Christians and single mothers/fathers.
yes, i realize some advertising and twittering will be a must for this to occur.

any advice?

Friday, July 31, 2009

swimwear

I remember when the thing i wanted THE most was a red swimsuit with a zipper down the front.

oh the early 90's...

Friday, July 24, 2009

a slice of peace-ah

Tonight Ben had a buddy over to watch their secret addiction 'Deadwood' and he was wonderful and let me have a chance to go for a walk all on my own! (without the pea)

I didnt know what exactly to do with myself at first, but then I headed for the beach.
i found I wasnt alone in that plan and stumbled upon a group of "herb" using hippies. so I ventured on.

The sun was setting so i sat down on the grass in a little park near the water and started to pray.
I became aware of more and more sounds and voices around me as the time went on. And looking around I saw what was probably about 12 couples all snuggled up on picnic blankets takin in the sunset with their loved ones in their arms.

When I get angsty and pent up feeling about my location.. being here in Vancouver with sparse friends and zero family, I think its wise for me to go watch the sunset.
Ben chose the perfect place for me. for us. and I am so proud to be a part of his life and his future,
and that means that my future (for the meantime anywho) is right here.